I seem to have a slice of the old me recently. To think I used to be so relaxed, so chilled and so happy. What changed me? what is it that had caused me to become such a short fused, rushed stress head?
Maybe its the fact that business has been so poor lately even though I'm working flat out. maybe it's the family drama I'm going through. I used to take pleasure in being a stroller... my friends said I didn't walk, I stroll like an old man. I was just enjoying my own pace of life, stopping every now and then and take my camera out of my pocket to take random photos. All I seem to do lately is rush... I often think "isn't hong kong suppose to be such a fast paced city? why the hell is everyone getting in my way? Get the f**k outta my way before I shove you down those stairs" Aggressive I know... i shock my self most of the time.
I know I've planned this all along, but i think i really do have to get my butt in gear and find a proper job soon. Not just because of the bad money although that is a big factor. It seems me being a freelancer mean i have no proof of income to have my very own place. I've lived in 8 addresses in the past 9 years. I really want to have a place to call home.
I'm hoping having a regular job would finally let me to relax once again. being a nervous designer I'm constantly thinking about work. Thinking about what i need to do. the clients i should follow up on. Comparing that to my old job in London, where I made sure I left by 6.30 at the very latest to go on and do all the things I love, seeing all my good friends. the life now kinda sucks. The heat doesn't help my temper either. Oh well, let see how it goes. I really would like to be that laid back, happy me again.
Thursday, 17 June 2010
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
LOST ended
Lost had finally ended, or I have finally got around to watching the last episode of Lost and what a great time it had been.
Like most of you out there, I too am left a bit frustrated with way too many things left unanswered. Did the writers screw themselves over with an impossible to conclude plot from making it so complicated earlier on? Only they would know. I'm not going to go into the theories of what the Island is, why the flash-sideway, for that I would recommend http://hubpages.com/hub/Lost-Ending-Explained
All i can say is I enjoyed the process. The story was engaging and clever, the cast was brilliant, acting was excellent! and now I feel empty without it.
I started watching lost way back when it was first aired in HK while i was here on holiday. for some strange reason I thought it was a 2 parts mini-movie and I was disappointed I was only able to catch the first part (which I was mesmerised by). A few weeks later I found not only it was coming to UK, it was gonna be a fair bit longer then being 2 parts. It was an actual series with proper budget and a whole lot of media exposure. Naturally I kept up with it and made sure I was in front of the TV when it was about to come on.
Ironically, a bit like like the series' habit of referring to cycles. I watched the first and last episode in the very same house (with 6 addresses in between)
This is the first ever series I had followed from start to end and although the ending is not exactly ideal I still love it and have ever intention of getting the boxset! (slightly hoping there will be more answered there)
Like finally finishing a good book. I feel rather empty. What would I do? what can I unwind to now? what can I look forward on a week to week basis? hang on, there's still Heroes! not the same but still good stuff.
Thank you Lost!
Like most of you out there, I too am left a bit frustrated with way too many things left unanswered. Did the writers screw themselves over with an impossible to conclude plot from making it so complicated earlier on? Only they would know. I'm not going to go into the theories of what the Island is, why the flash-sideway, for that I would recommend http://hubpages.com/hub/Lost-Ending-Explained
All i can say is I enjoyed the process. The story was engaging and clever, the cast was brilliant, acting was excellent! and now I feel empty without it.
I started watching lost way back when it was first aired in HK while i was here on holiday. for some strange reason I thought it was a 2 parts mini-movie and I was disappointed I was only able to catch the first part (which I was mesmerised by). A few weeks later I found not only it was coming to UK, it was gonna be a fair bit longer then being 2 parts. It was an actual series with proper budget and a whole lot of media exposure. Naturally I kept up with it and made sure I was in front of the TV when it was about to come on.
Ironically, a bit like like the series' habit of referring to cycles. I watched the first and last episode in the very same house (with 6 addresses in between)
This is the first ever series I had followed from start to end and although the ending is not exactly ideal I still love it and have ever intention of getting the boxset! (slightly hoping there will be more answered there)
Like finally finishing a good book. I feel rather empty. What would I do? what can I unwind to now? what can I look forward on a week to week basis? hang on, there's still Heroes! not the same but still good stuff.
Thank you Lost!
Tuesday, 1 June 2010
holiday
Everyone needs a break every now and then, I feel so bad for my parents who works bloody hard for so many decades, with only 1 day off per week or even no day off in some weeks. When I was very young my Dad used to work 2 full time jobs to make sure there's food or the table for me and the rest of the family, he would sleep as little as 2 hours a night. Me being a grumpy morning person who needs at least 8 hours to be not a completely asshole and biting people's head off. I really don't know how he did it.While my mum has the extremely difficult job of full time work and being responsible for the entire house, that's 3 elders and 5 kids!!!! Between them they did an absolute fabulous job. I love and admire them even more for being so great.
As for holidays - in recent years they come to HK every 2/3 years for a 'holiday' but with such a big family and always coming to HK for chinese new year, they never really had time off. I feel very bad about that. Now that I'm much more able I really can't wait to treat them to a proper holiday. where they can actually relax and do what they want.
As for my own holidays. i'm a strange one. What kinda holidays do I like? well i never really had an urge to go on holidays. I would love days off work, but to go on holiday and see a bunch of buildings were never my thing. I think the best holiday I had were seeing friends and doing some sort of sport. I miss snowboarding so much, I can't wait to do it again!!!!
As for holidays - in recent years they come to HK every 2/3 years for a 'holiday' but with such a big family and always coming to HK for chinese new year, they never really had time off. I feel very bad about that. Now that I'm much more able I really can't wait to treat them to a proper holiday. where they can actually relax and do what they want.
As for my own holidays. i'm a strange one. What kinda holidays do I like? well i never really had an urge to go on holidays. I would love days off work, but to go on holiday and see a bunch of buildings were never my thing. I think the best holiday I had were seeing friends and doing some sort of sport. I miss snowboarding so much, I can't wait to do it again!!!!
Monday, 3 May 2010
If you can't respect me...
fear me!
26 and hating being controlled, maybe I should be a personal trainer, that way I can get paid to tell others what to do. Woohoo
Thursday, 29 April 2010
It's not about work, it's about life
There's something about HK, ever since I've been back my career had been a much bigger subject in my life. Maybe it's what the most exciting city of the east does to you, or maybe it how being freelance changes you.
A week ago, i was asked if I would like to do a course to be PT instructor and that got me thinking about ditching design again. I won't go into the details again, the short story is. I ended up asking myself and my friends on facebook should I:
A very surprising number of people suggested B) and after much thought I too had decided to give this Personal Trainer business a go. My arguement for doing so was much like the reason why I first thought about coming back to HK - I'm young and i don't want to have regrets, if worst comes to worst, i would have wasted the course fee for something I enjoy. To be honest, i never really thought of myself as normal, i know to some degree no one think they are normal and we certainly unique in our own ways, but I rather like the fact that I'm not sticking to the rules society is setting me AND not to mention the fact I've always been an awkward child and a bit of a freak (which I'm actually kinda proud of)
So why all the fuss about what to do? well, I knew very early on I wanted to be sucessful, now that could be the chinese family in a foreign country thing. I've always knew I need to do something with mylife, so in a way work is not purely about what to get food on the table. it's also about what i'll make out of myself. A side from being an awkward weirdo who likes a bit of pain (too much information?) I also have very little patientces and I hate the fact that i could be wasting time developing myself in one way or another by doing something that might be mean anything. Sound kinda silly knowing how much time and money i've spent on Martial Arts, Gymnastics and Parkour right? Maybe it's because keeping active is something I simply cannot live without. The days after training from the night before had always been the most productive days, my body would ache but not itching for me to move away from the computer and my mind would feel much sharper and fresh. I guess what i'm trying to say is, this is something I know I love and I'm willing to waste my much valued time and money for it. It might be a mistake but i'm still gonna walk this way without regreds.
Another thing that's been saddens me is how there's so many people i know with a lot of heart and soul yet they don't seem to get the opportunity they deserve. Life it's not really fair is it? There's so many people out there who work so damn hard to provide so little for their family yet. Society is so fucked up. there's people out there who can earn 10 times more then someone who work twice the hours. It's so sad work seem to rule our lives. Anyway I'm getting tired and I think i'm rambling...
A week ago, i was asked if I would like to do a course to be PT instructor and that got me thinking about ditching design again. I won't go into the details again, the short story is. I ended up asking myself and my friends on facebook should I:
A) Get real and live a proper life, ditch this unstable, long hours freelance design and get a proper 9 to 5
B) Stick to freelance, be my own boss and try my hands in the world of sports and fitness by being a fitness instructor
A very surprising number of people suggested B) and after much thought I too had decided to give this Personal Trainer business a go. My arguement for doing so was much like the reason why I first thought about coming back to HK - I'm young and i don't want to have regrets, if worst comes to worst, i would have wasted the course fee for something I enjoy. To be honest, i never really thought of myself as normal, i know to some degree no one think they are normal and we certainly unique in our own ways, but I rather like the fact that I'm not sticking to the rules society is setting me AND not to mention the fact I've always been an awkward child and a bit of a freak (which I'm actually kinda proud of)
So why all the fuss about what to do? well, I knew very early on I wanted to be sucessful, now that could be the chinese family in a foreign country thing. I've always knew I need to do something with mylife, so in a way work is not purely about what to get food on the table. it's also about what i'll make out of myself. A side from being an awkward weirdo who likes a bit of pain (too much information?) I also have very little patientces and I hate the fact that i could be wasting time developing myself in one way or another by doing something that might be mean anything. Sound kinda silly knowing how much time and money i've spent on Martial Arts, Gymnastics and Parkour right? Maybe it's because keeping active is something I simply cannot live without. The days after training from the night before had always been the most productive days, my body would ache but not itching for me to move away from the computer and my mind would feel much sharper and fresh. I guess what i'm trying to say is, this is something I know I love and I'm willing to waste my much valued time and money for it. It might be a mistake but i'm still gonna walk this way without regreds.
Another thing that's been saddens me is how there's so many people i know with a lot of heart and soul yet they don't seem to get the opportunity they deserve. Life it's not really fair is it? There's so many people out there who work so damn hard to provide so little for their family yet. Society is so fucked up. there's people out there who can earn 10 times more then someone who work twice the hours. It's so sad work seem to rule our lives. Anyway I'm getting tired and I think i'm rambling...
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