It's not about work, it's about life

There's something about HK, ever since I've been back my career had been a much bigger subject in my life. Maybe it's what the most exciting city of the east does to you, or maybe it how being freelance changes you.
 A week ago, i was asked if I would like to do a course to be PT instructor and that got me thinking about ditching design again. I won't go into the details again, the short story is. I ended up asking myself and my friends on facebook should I:

A) Get real and live a proper life, ditch this unstable, long hours freelance design and get a proper 9 to 5

B) Stick to freelance, be my own boss and try my hands in the world of sports and fitness by being a fitness instructor

A very surprising number of people suggested B) and after much thought I too had decided to give this Personal Trainer business a go. My arguement for doing so was much like the reason why I first thought about coming back to HK - I'm young and i don't want to have regrets, if worst comes to worst, i would have wasted the course fee for something I enjoy.  To be honest, i never really thought of myself as normal, i know to some degree no one think they are normal and we certainly unique in our own ways, but I rather like the fact that I'm not sticking to the rules society is setting me AND not to mention the fact I've always been an awkward child and a bit of a freak (which I'm actually kinda proud of)

So why all the fuss about what to do? well, I knew very early on I wanted to be sucessful, now that could be the chinese family in a foreign country thing. I've always knew I need to do something with mylife, so in a way work is not purely about what to get food on the table. it's also about what i'll make out of myself. A side from being an awkward weirdo who likes a bit of pain (too much information?) I also have very little patientces and I hate the fact that i could be wasting time developing myself in one way or another by doing something that might be mean anything. Sound kinda silly knowing how much time and money i've spent on Martial Arts, Gymnastics and Parkour right? Maybe it's because keeping active is something I simply cannot live without. The days after training from the night before had always been the most productive days, my body would ache but not itching for me to move away from the computer and my mind would feel much sharper and fresh. I guess what i'm trying to say is, this is something I know I love and I'm willing to waste my much valued time and money for it. It might be a mistake but i'm still gonna walk this way without regreds.

Another thing that's been saddens me is how there's so many people i know with a lot of heart and soul yet they don't seem to get the opportunity they deserve. Life it's not really fair is it? There's so many people out there who work so damn hard to provide so little for their family yet. Society is so fucked up. there's people out there who can earn 10 times more then someone who work twice the hours. It's so sad work seem to rule our lives. Anyway I'm getting tired and I think i'm rambling...

Work work work

Following my last post about work going well, my girlfriend today asked me "Aren't you going a bit over the top with this work thing"?  It turns out I work around 60 - 70 hours a week, there's at least 2 days a week where I work from when I wake up to when i go to sleep... is that a bit too much?

I'm working this hard because I really want to be able to buy an apartment by end of this year. I've wanted to have my own proper place for a few years now, I've moved 9 times in the last 8 years and I hope the next place I live in would be nice place. I'm working so many hours must mean I'm saving up pretty nicely right? wrong!!! I don't know how the fuck I do it, but through out March, I earned less then if I work at McDonald? Since I left UK, I'm now working 60% more hours yet earning 25% what i used to!

Pretty clever I managed to get into this mess right? That's the thing about freelancing, right now I have several projects on the go and until they are finished I won't get paid, most of the time the money ain't too bad but I seem to be hitting a new low at the moment. Hence working harder to finish them off. I admit I can be a bit of a workaholic? that's why whenever I'm home i can't seem to switch off and I just work and work but recently it's getting a bit too much for me. I need to get out of the house a bit more.  it's getting pretty depressing when I look forward to going to th doctors just so i can leave the house. I am so bored right now, someone get me a drink!

I was looking for some old photos to use for a project and as i went through my computer I came across so many fond memories of how life used to be like when I had spare time,  Life in London seem such a long time ago. I wonder if I would get that lifestyle back again in HK.